Life after Love



  Watching you from the corner, you're smiling like you have no care in the world. Only that smile is not for me. It's for her. You're happy with her. She's not scared to tell you she loves you. You're safe with her, she's your haven. You're forever with her, she’s your fairytale love. She knows your deepest secrets, knows your fear, what makes you tick. She knows what makes you smile. She'll make you your favorite dish. She'll be the one to kiss you Good morning and goodnight. She'll know how you're scared of the dark and your favorite color is blue. She'll play hide and seek with you as you relive your child hood days. She'll pull your beard and laugh at your silly jokes.
   I wonder if you think of me, think of us. I meant it when I said I hope I never see the day that you'll move on and be happy without me, your exact words were "Ifemi, if the world should stand still, my love for you will keep growing'. Yet you've moved on and you're happy without me.
   What happened to all the promises made, to all the times when we named our unborn children, to all the times when we counted the stars and said our love is infinite, to all the times when your friends called me "Iyawo wa".?
   Do you think of me when you tell her you love her, like the way you said it to me with utmost sincerity? Did you promise her you'll never leave her like the way you promised me? Do you play with her hair and tell her stories of your ancestors, like the way you told me? Do you hold her the same way you held me?
   I wonder if you think of me when you say those two magical words "I do”, how we practiced saying it over and over like two love drunk teenagers. I wonder if memories of us haunt you as you lay beside her. Is it bad to wish she breaks your heart like you broke mine? Is it bad to say I hope you're filled with regret?
   But no, I don't do all that as I walk towards you with unshed tears and the broadest smile. I hug you and wish you the best that life has to offer cause my love for you, Ifemi, is infinite.
                                                                                                             Queenette                                             

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